I would die for you
Lay down my life for you
You're the only thing that means everything to me
When you're in my arms
You make me prouder than
Than anything I ever could achieve
And you make everything that used to seem so big
Seem to be so small since you arrived.
I often wonder why,
Someone as flawed as I
Deserves to be as happy as you make me
So as the years roll by
I'll be there by your side
I'll follow you wherever your heart takes me
Cause you make everything that used to be so big
Seem to be so small since you arrived
Now anyone who's felt the touch of heaven in their lives
Will know the way I'm feeling, looking
In my Ella's eyes
That's why I can't bear to be too far away
I know that god must love me cause
He sent you to me on angel's wings
from: Angel's Wings by Westlife
(ok I added the Ella part : ) )
I was talking to a very close friend about Ella recently. OK I admit I may have been feeling a little sorry for myself. She said to me, Ella is so lucky to have a mom as good as you are. I snapped back, "It's not like I had a choice, I didn't choose this!" Calmly (as is her fashion) she said, God and Ella chose you to be her mother...
Gulp...
I guess I hadn't thought of it like that (isn't that what truly good friends are for? To snap you back to reality?)-
ESPECIALLY when you are feeling sorry for yourself???
If God and Ella think that I can do this, I certainly can't let them down!
Thank you God and Ella...I accept and an honored to be Ella's mama.
I don't promise that I will always do everything right... What is it I saw on a friends post recently?, "There is
no way to be a perfect mother, but a million ways to be a good one” The one thing that I CAN promise you
(God and Ella) is that I will NEVER be a perfect mother...(don't feel left out though Ella, this goes for your
sisters too-not just you! : ) ) I will try though, I'll try soooo hard to do the best for you always.
I'm learning here too. I know that there are going to be so many things that you will need that I dont know
anything about...but I will learn, I will keep trying until I know everything about everything...as far as you are
concerned...
Ella-before you were diagnosed, I was going back to college to finish my Master's Degree in Education.
That is now on the back burner (and that is just fine) My new master's degree is in Ella and Rett's
Syndrome...
I will learn and learn and learn. And after I am done...I will learn more...
I'm on your side kiddo...we're gonna do this together.
Thank you God and Ella...
Thank you God for Ella.
